Thursday, December 27, 2018

Introducing Holly Lynn . . . MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL!

I have a personal YouTube Channel!!!!

I've been wanting to start a personal channel since the beginning of 2018. There are 4 days left in the year, so I decided it's as good of a time as any!

I've had a rabbit YouTube channel for several years and I love the world of YouTube. I love expressing my creativity through the editing process, and I have so much fun filming. I'm super super excited to have one that is about everything else I love in life.

I did some filming in California so I could remember the time and create a vlog when I got back. It's not edited or up yet, but I did film several videos today . . . and the intro is up NOW!

My channel is called Holly Lynn, my first and middle names. I'm so excited to share it with you all. I hope you enjoy. The link is down below. Check it out!!

Holly Lynn Introduction 

Unfortunately I wasn't able to use the thumbnail I had already made, so I'll put it here.




Thursday, November 22, 2018

Happy Thanksgiving 2018

This holiday season, I'm really dwelling on how much I have to be thankful for. I guess we all think this way around Thanksgiving - it's in the name, after all. But, I'm going to be honest - thankfulness hasn't come easily to me this season. I'm not doing the job I want to do for the rest of my life, school sucks sometimes, and I have no time for fun. Expectations weigh me down, and most of them are my own, on myself.

But amidst all those precursors to an unhappy holiday, I choose to dwell on the reason for the season.

I am thankful for family. Even if we have our drama, at least I have a family to call my own. Even if we cry over silly misunderstandings and hurtful words, our laughter is the loudest.

I am thankful for my home. Even though I share a room with my sister and the house is too small (or my brothers are too big), and we're running out of space, at least I have a roof over my head, and a warm place to sleep.

I am thankful for my job. Even though it's the hardest work I've ever done, it's also the most rewarding and fulfilling (sometimes). My colleagues are amazing, understanding, and so supportive. We're a great team.

I am thankful for my school. Even if I have to study every night, don't enjoy every class, and don't get all As, I have incredible professors, an amazing university, and great friends. And someday, these several years of school will be so worth it.

I am thankful for my friends. Even though I don't see them often enough, I know we care about each other and love each other no matter what.

I am thankful for my anxieties. They keep me grounded, humbled, and surround the things I love most - and at least I don't have the worries of my next meal, where I will sleep, or how I'll stay safe.

I am thankful for Jesus, and his awesome love for me and my mostly ungrateful heart. I'm thankful that even when I fail, he doesn't let me fall.

I'm thankful that I am not battling deep anxiety or depression on a regular basis. I am thankful for good sleep. I'm thankful for coffee and pie. I'm thankful for conversations and board games. If you're reading this, I'm thankful for you, too.

Have a wonderful night, and guess what - it's Christmas now. I'm super thankful for that.

With love,

Holly

Where I've Been

Well hey there. . . welcome back . . . to say it's been a while would be an understatement.

These past few months have been busy, busy, busy. I have several blog drafts that I've started and never finished and now they're a little irrelevant . . . does it make sense in November or December to post a blog all about how my summer was? Yes? . . . No? Well, I didn't think so either. Maybe one of these days I'll post something about what I've been up to more specifically since I was regularly posting, including the summer.


I'm writing this on Thanksgiving Day. Immediately after I post this one, there will be another post about what I'm thankful for. But, this 4-day weekend is some of the only time I've had all quarter to actually write some posts. I'm hoping to write quite a few today, or at least over the weekend.

School has been busy, work has been busier . . . life has been stressful. My days are long and often exhausting. I keep telling myself it's almost finished, because Christmas break is right around the corner. And for me, which I'll discuss further later on, I have a whole month away from school and work! But enough of what's going to happen in the future . . . where exactly have I been?!

In September, I started working again at L Elementary school 4 days a week. On Fridays, I am at S Elementary school (using initials for privacy), doing my practicum work. As a practicum student, I teach lessons, observe the teacher, and work with small groups of kids. I get to know the students, and love them more and with each new interaction. This quarter has been especially affirming to my desire to be a teacher. I love these kids. I love this work. But as a life skills para at L, I often feel distraught and anxious that I'm doing the wrong thing, that I'll be unhappy in my work forever, and that my schoolwork is pointless. But then on Fridays, I get to forget about all of that and be a little bit closer to who I really want to be - a teacher with MY OWN CLASSROOM with MY OWN STUDENTS!! I really can't wait, you guys.

And I only have a year and a half left.

October went by very quickly with lots of projects to do and tough days at work. My mom and sister and I spent a weekend at Lakeside Bible Camp, learning more about Jesus, each other, and ourselves. That was such a blissful weekend, and quite a blessing in the mix of a tough month.

November has also come and gone so quickly. I turned 20 - which will be another post on it's own. What a birthday that was!

This week has been pretty insane at work. I joined a gym, which I think I'll really enjoy. We had no classes all week, which is a huge blessing. I've been catching up on homework and actually reading for fun. I LOVE reading. I don't know if I've mentioned it here before - but it's my obsession. I have books EVERYWHERE and I still don't have enough.
This past quarter I've been reading lots of Bible-based books that I've enjoyed, such as Everybody Always by Bob Goff. I'm currently reading plenty of Jesus books as well - Boundaries by Henry Cloud and John Townsend, The Ministry of Ordinary Places by Shannon Martin, and Good and Angry, by David Powlison.

Not exactly faith-related, but the author comes from a Biblical perspective, I've also been listening to Girl, Wash your Face by Rachel Hollis, which is AMAZING (don't worry, reviews on all these books to come). It's such a breath of fresh air in this overly indulgent and media-crazed world. I got Girl, Wash your Face on audio CD because there were 22+ holds on it at our library. I love listening to it though, since it's her voice reading, she knows the best way to read it. It's so amazing.

I also read lots of fiction novels last weekend - they are middle school level but I was so intrigued by them. The Boy in Striped Pajamas, Out of my Mind, and Because of Mr. Terupt were inhaled by me this past weekend.

That's just some of what I've been up to. But I hope you've enjoyed a little piece of my heart in this post, and I'll see you all soon.

Thanks for reading,

Holly

Saturday, September 1, 2018

I Hated the Word Feminist...Now I Consider Myself One

"Feminism: The advocacy of women's rights based on the equality of the sexes." - Urban Dictionary 
The word "Feminist" or "Feminism" used to leave a bad taste in my mouth.

These are words that has been around for a long time (since the 1800s at least), but have become increasingly popular of late, especially in American culture. 

Feminism started because at one point in America, it was illegal for women to read, vote or go to college. It was illegal to buy or use any form of birth control even within marriage. It was not illegal to take advantage of a woman, and rape her, and there were no negative consequences for the men involved. Women were unprepared to enter the work force because up until WW2, women were expected to stay at home and raise the children. If a woman lost her husband, whether or not she was elderly or young, she would become homeless because she was either unprepared for the work force or discriminated against due to her sex. Once our men came home from WW2, women were expected to go back to home and raise the children, even if they desired to continue being in the workforce.

Women were oppressed in all ways imaginable. In many countries, we still are. Feminism grew and developed throughout the years as a way to change this, because many women - and men - saw a disparity in the genders and desired change. 

One of the things that really rubs me the wrong way, is that from the beginning, Christian and Catholic women were the primary sources of women that disagreed with the idea of feminism. Men from all different walks of life disagreed with the idea. But the primary source of women that disagreed called themselves Christians, Catholic, Conservative. Feminism was offensive to them because they considered it to be "anti-Biblical" to work outside the home; prevent pregnancy; go to college or pursue higher knowledge; to leave your husband; or choose to remain a single woman. 



In the 90s, feminism centered around women trying to change the typical view of what a woman was and could be. It also centered around opposition to violence against women and sexual assault. This is something that is still necessary to fight and oppose to this day. Did you know that it's currently not illegal in America to take photos up the skirt of a women? 

I bought into the view that the word "feminism" centered around getting women equal rights as men. But ALSO that women who called themselves "feminists" hated men, wanted to stop chauvinism, loved birth control and abortion and hated children, and thought that all women should just go to college and be businesswomen. That's a stereotypical view of feminists. Some women may call themselves feminists and believe that. The majority do not. 

The majority of feminists recognize that there is a disparity between the genders. They recognize that the treatment of men and women is highly unequal, and that it should be changed. That does not sound "Anti-Biblical" to me. I have talked to a couple women that told me that they haven't experienced any inequality in their lives as women. 

To them I say, congratulations. I'm so happy for you. As we can see from the recent #metoo movement, it's not the case for the majority of women. This isn't the time to discuss that more in depth, but I do want to say that most men don't have to fear sexual oppression when they're just walking down the street. Women and girls are 5 times more likely to be sexually assaulted than their male counterparts. 

I started seeing feminism differently after reading an essay by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie, titled, "Why We Should All be Feminists". It's only 45 (small) pages long and I encourage everyone to read it. Just read it. I'm not even going to quote her here, because the book is too good. 

I am a Christian feminist. I believe in the God of the Bible. I believe that all people are created in the image of God, that human life is sacred, that all have sinned, and that God's holy son Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins, and our sins were completely forgiven upon his Resurrection. (Genesis 1:27; Genesis 3; Romans 3:23; Romans 6:23; Luke 23:26 - 24:12). 

To say that women and men are unequal, and should stay that way, is to deny that both man and woman were created in his image. We sinned equally. He LOVES us equally (Genesis 2; Romans 3:23; Matthew/Mark/Luke/John).

God himself says that there is NO distinction: "For there is no distinction: For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus. …" (Romans 3:22-24).

ALL. Gentile, Jew, woman, man, etc. God knows no race or gender when it comes to his expectations for us: obedience. 

To believe that men and women should remain separated by gender, is to believe that segregation should remain based upon gender. 

I believe that men and women are created equal. I believe that black African and white American are created to be equal. I believe that young and old are created equal. I believe that autistic and "typical" are created equal. I believe that the God of the Bible loves every single one of us equally, and does not discriminate based on gender, race, ability, age, or anything else. Everyone has access to Him. 

If our God does not discriminate, why should we?

To allow women to be treated or seen as less than men is to hold the view that there is one type of person that is better than anyone else. You become part of the bigger problem at large when you hold this ideal that men are better than women. If this is believed worldwide, what chance to people of other races, ability levels, or ages, have to achieve equality? 

I am not saying that there is no difference between the genders. I believe that differences are what make us special, and should be acknowledged and treated with respect. God has a plan for our differences. But that is not the main focus of this post. Maybe another day. 

This is why I am a feminist. I believe that Feminism is a women's rights issue, and that makes it a Human's Rights issue. I like to use the word feminist because it acknowledges the disparity between the genders that so many people these days would love to ignore. Just saying that I am for Human's Rights and equality for all is too generic. 

I love men, I love babies, I do believe that differences make us special, and I am a feminist. And I'm a pro-life, Bible-believing Christian.

Saturday, August 4, 2018

Book Censorship



Words are powerful things. And books are full of them. Words can start wars, a friendship, lead to love. Within their words, books contain ideas, memories, voices.

When books are banned, a voice is silenced. A voice is declared, "You are offensive," or, "You have no place here."

How can someone tell a voice that they have no place? Who is the judge of that? Who are we, to tell our children, the world's future, what they can or can't enjoy, just because it makes us look bad? They might not be able to handle it? They can't separate fiction from reality?

If you can't tell, I lean more or less towards the opinion that no books should be banned. In my opinion, telling people what they can and cannot read, what words they can and cannot see/hear, is trying to control their lives in more ways than anyone has authority to do. In today's post, I want to give you a list of books that have been banned, for one reason or another, and the reason behind it. Primarily, I'm going to be talking about books that have been censored but are considered an important piece of literature today, or should be. I want to shed light on the fact that book censorship is something that has been around for a long, long time, and it continues today in schools and libraries all over the country. When we are banning books and telling people what they can and can't read, we are silencing the freedom of speech. Books take us places; on adventures, through time, and teach us important lessons. These lessons should not be silenced.


Book censorship has been a topic on my mind lately, due to the fact that it was brought up in my diversity and equity class a couple months ago. A blog post was posted in a Facebook group about books that are good to use to educate children on the struggles and history of Native Americans and some books that are not good to do so. On the "do not read" list, Little House on the Prairie was mentioned, for being overtly racist towards Native Americans. 

I decided to do more research on book banning. 

There are many reasons why books are banned. The top 5 that I discovered were racial issues, sexism, political bias, explicit sexual content, and language. We ban books for these all the time. However, movies and TV shows contain the same, if not more, of these "explicit" contents, yet they are never banned, and children are allowed in many households to watch movies and TV shows that they can't even begin to understand, might be considered inappropriate, but never banned. Why is this? What is different about books that prompt banning and censorship?

While I don't agree with letting every child of every age get access to books that might have content too mature for them, I do think it's incredibly silly that we have been so quick to ban books and yet our TV shows and movies have incredibly explicit content and are never challenged or censored. These days, children and teens don't read nearly as much as they watch TV or movies. They have access to incredible technology that thirty years ago we could've never dreamed of. And yet before we would censor a movie or social media app or tv show...we ban a book. 

Keep reading,

Holly